It’s been a couple of weeks since I posted anything, energy a bit low, blood glucose a bit high on average. I’m trying to loose weight – NOT easy. I’ve had a few dysphoria episodes, I wish I could say I’m done with that, or that the medications are more effective – but no, not really.
I can confirm something that one one of my intersexed FB friends told me – I likely need a new psychiatrist. I tried explaining all the feelings about wanting to ‘be with’ guys, how it was more a romantic/emotional support type of need. I explained the thing about having – essentially – two different sex drives, and how my wife was only SLOWLY coming to grips with that. I told him about how I still felt so much anxiety at times about dealing with this…
His suggestion – I might consider a trial separation in the future and a prescription for Xanax. No mention of low-dose hormone therapy soon or in the future. I don’t think he ‘Gets’ what being trans* is about. He treats it as if I’m an effeminate gay guy.
<facepalm> “REALLY?” I had to push to get him to admit a full endocrine workup was a good idea. (it was normal BTW).
Having a endocrine levels across the board means that I’m a typical trans* person – and this is an organic problem as described in literature.
The last visit to the therapist was productive. Some crying as usual, but many times now it feels more cleansing than revealing weakness. I still tend to think my issue is as much with sexual as gender identity – that bigender is more the case than being a full blown MtF. Crossdessing is a possibility, but I have over 40 pounds to drop and my hair isn’t as long as I’d like it yet. Then – there’s the VOICE….potentially the biggest problem.
A friend suggested purple yams – I can’t remember what FOR, but they are tasty. Magnesium seems to help, the same friend suggested this type:
I’ve also been taking L-Arginine, as it’s supposed to help maintain the elasticity of veins and arteries – something that I can use, as I’m over 50 and diabetic.
This post on facebook by ‘N’ was interesting….
“Men and women have fully developed neurological systems for fu..king like their opposite genders. In straight men the part that makes them wish to do the femme thing is repressed and for straight women the butch thing is repressed.
Hypothetically it should be trivial to change a person’s sexual orientation within minutes.
To completely change it one would need to unblock the same gender pathway and then block the opposite gender pathway. But why bother? If the same gender pathway is unblocked and the opposite gender pathway not blocked animals fu..k like transsexuals! (To avoid the usual headache of figuring out what gender pronoun to use with transsexuals for this post I am going with their anatomic gender at birth.)
In this abstract researchers surgically unblocked the male behavioral pathway in female mice and they went at it with other females although they still preferred being the layie than the layer in liking the guy rats more than the gal ones.
Of course most lesbians and gay men can tell you an effective non surgical means of unblocking the same gender pathway. I.e. the difference between a straight and a gay is a few alcoholic drinks. Alcohol works by lowering inhibitory neurological functioning which is why someone with a voice like a gravel truck won’t do karaoke and most White males won’t dance until they are buzzing a bit on alcohol. Alcohol has the potential to make almost anyone bisexual.”
“Despite the display of a transsexual behaviour (i.e. vigorous mounting), all females with the cut showed heterosexual partner preference.””
Oestrogen-induced vigorous mounting:
PubMed – NCBI
Given the way I feel at times, I have to wonder how poorly the ‘female’ pathway is blocked in my case. I’m less about gender identity than about sexual identity at times.
I periodically get in ‘discussions’ with both Atheists and Reactionaries over what ‘dogma’ I should believe, or what the Bible says about people like me. I’m not going to tackle the Atheist discussions for now, but I’m going to toss out some things that lead me to believe that God really doesn’t have a problem with Gay relationships that are steady and as committed as Heterosexual ones.
How do I decide?
Christ said the greatest commandment is to love God with all that we are. Well, that means being able to admit it when it’s obvious we’re wrong – this includes things that are demonstrably true that might seem in opposition to ‘biblical’ teaching. How can we love God, if we choose the oft-mangled bible, when the facts of God’s creation are sitting right in front of us?
Christ said the second greatest commandment is to love others as we love ourselves. If ANYTHING in the Bible contradicts this – it’s wrong or being interpreted badly. The Bible is NOT infallible – the original texts are long dust or lost. It was originally composed by a political think-tank under Constantine by the early version of the Catholic Church. Interpretation is ‘murky’ at best in spots.
Major Doctrine is repeated often, and supports other major doctrines. Minor Doctrines that conflict with point 1 or point 2 have to be reconsidered.
The bible is literally true in some places, others – not so much. Allegory is common, and Bronze age men did not have the words or concepts that we have now.
If the Holy Spirit does not guide you, then you’re likely to get it wrong. If you’re violating principle 1 or 2 above – you are not following the prompting of the Holy Spirit…. See the Southern Baptist Convention for Examples….BUTTLOADS OF THEM.
I know, because that’s the church that I was brought up in – they SAY they’re all about forgiveness – trust me, there’s not a bigger group of bigots around. There’s not much worse than a self-assured bunch of people that KNOW that ‘God is on on their side’.
I don’t accept the self-assured and completely internal logic of either the “Holier than Thou” crowd *OR* the Atheists I generally run into. Everything hangs on facts, and the fact is – just because you can’t SEE something doesn’t mean it’s not there.
A guy names Jeff Beresford posted something on a FB group (thanks for letting me post this Jeff), and I suggest reading this guy’s piece on DeviantArt …
( http://dadona777.deviantart.com/art/Common-Misconceptions-about-the-Bible-and-LGBT-304656027?q=gallery%3Adadona777%2F31878877&qo=7 )
If Paul intended to condemn homosexuality, he could have used at least 12 other words, universally known and in common usage that specifically address homosexual acts to make his point.
Instead of using ANY of these words however, Paul coined a new Greek word, arsenokoitai or arsenokoites, from the words arsenos koiten, found in Lev 20:13 in the Septuagint, (a Greek translation of the Old Testament), where the cultural, historical and religious context is temple prostitution.
Other Words Paul could have used? – well then its just as well i mentioned it….
arrenomanes – meaning mad after men or boy crazy
dihetaristriai – a synonym referencing lesbian sexuality, meaning essentially the same thing as hetairistriai, tribad, tribades, from: Love Between Women: Early Christian Responses to Female Homoeroticism, Brooton, Bernadette, p. 23.
erastes – a sometimes older man who loves a sometimes younger male
eromenos – a sometimes younger male who loves an older male
euryproktoi – men who dress as women, also a vulgar reference to anal penetration
frictrix – Latin word referring to a lewd woman and sometimes used to refer to a lesbian. Tertullian, 160-220 AD, translated tribas (a masculine woman) as frictrix.
hetairistriai – women who are attracted to other women, used by Plato’s character Aristophanes, in The Symposium. May also refer to hyper-masculine women, from Lucian’s Dialogue of the Courtesans, cited by Brooten, p. 52.
kinaidos – a word for effeminate, ???a?d?? or kínaidoi (cinaedus in its Latinized form), a man “whose most salient feature was a supposedly feminine love of being sexually penetrated by other men.” Winkler, John J., 1990, The Constraints of Desire: The Anthropology of Sex and Gender in Ancient Greece, New York: Routledge. (Although some scholars, like Dr. Robert Gagnon, understand kinaidoi to mean the passive partner in a male couple, Davidson argues that kinaidoi refers to a man insatiable and unrestrained in his sexual appetites instead of merely effeminate or passive. Davidson, J. 1997. Courtesans & Fishcakes: The Consuming Passions of Classical Athens, New York, p. 167-182.)
lakkoproktoi – a lewd and vulgar reference to anal penetration
lesbiai – a synonym referencing lesbian sexuality, meaning essentially the same thing as dihetaristriai, hetairistriai, tribad, tribades, from: Love Between Women: Early Christian Responses to Female Homoeroticism, Brooton, Bernadette, p. 23.
paiderasste – sexual behavior between males
paiderastes or paiderastïs – pa?de?ast?? derived from the Greek word pais, pa?? a boy, meaning lover of boys
paidomanes – a male mad for boys or boy crazy
paidophthoros – a Greek word meaning corrupter of boys
pathikos – the passive penetrated partner in a male couple
tribades – an ancient Latin word indicating the active female partner of a lesbian pair, sometimes interpreted to mean a pseudo-male, referencing genital contact between women. Rashi defines it as “rubbing in a sexual manner.”
tribas – the active partner in a lesbian relationship, who takes the male role
So, a veritable cornupcopia of widely accepted and understood words, not only to refer to the generlaities, but also to the specifics. If Paul had used one of these words in Romans 1:26-27 or 1 Corinthians 6:9 or 1Timothy 1:10, we could be reasonably certain of his meaning. However, Paul did not use any of these words, suggesting he had some-thing else in mind, like rape, interspecies sex or shrine prostitution, when he coined his interesting new Greek word, arsenokoitai.
Paul intended to remind his readers of the real meaning of arsenokoitai, based on the way first century Jews understood Leviticus 20:13. Therefore modern readers need to remind themselves that in the first century, Jewish religious leaders understood arsenos-koiten as used in Leviticus 20:13, as condemning shrine prostitutes and the sex rituals which accompanied their worship of false gods.
There is not a shred of historical evidence that anyone in the first century A.D. understood arsenokoitai to refer to male and female homosexuality in general.
..again, thanks Jeff.
You can see toward the end – Paul VERY likely meant eroticism linked to worshipping other gods (Check the Ten Commandments on that one). SHOW ME where Homosexuality is any more sinful than eating Fried Shrimp. It’s not….
Peter was essentially told in Acts that the Levitical Law does not apply to Christians.
One argument I’ve heard MANY times….
“since when does somebodies choice of behavior qualify as minority status? whats next legalizing pedophillia? beastiality? polygamy? incest? of those groups use exactly the same arguement to promote their cause as homo’s.”
“All Gays are pedophiles” is an argument? It’s not even TRUE, it’s another lie trotted out by ‘christians’ who are unable to see past their bigotry to even review what the bible ACTUALLY SAYS about being ‘different’.
Christians explicitly follow the New Testament.
Jews Follow the Pentateuch (first five books of our ‘bible’), venerate (?) the rest of the Old Testament, and do not accept the New at all.
Understanding the word requires the guidance of the Holy Spirit. This is stated outright in a few places, and an example is specifically given in the tale of the Ethiopian Eunuch.
Atheists like to cherry-pick the horrible misogynistic stuff in the Old Testament to say what you just did. TOO MANY ‘christian’ churches rely on the Old Testament to support their prejudices.
Peter is told that God has ‘made things clean’ – the Levitical requirements no longer apply.
The Old Testament is history, testimony, and the Law. In the Old Testament, Priests gave animal sacrifices to God to exonerate sins. When Christ came to be the perfect sacrifice, ALL the animal sacrifices were made unnecessary. The Law no longer applies to any that accept the Gift of that sacrifice.
Just because a person DID things in the OT, does not mean that’s the way to do it.
The Law is something better than the horrors of the pagan religions that surrounded Israel – but it is NOT the standard that God really sets. Rather, it is a standard – to constantly improve until we no longer CAN.
The Old Testament is but one example to us that – through our own efforts, we can never reach God. Christ says as much in the New Testament.
I became a Christian in ’93. I went through 2 years of Discipleship Studies.
I *have* read it. I will not claim to be a theologian, or even an apologist – but the statements made by most ‘Christians’ is WRONG. Just because a textbook gives examples that are wrong, so that you do not make those errors, does not render the textbook wrong….
According to one fellow, “1,138 rights and protections including the right to visit your dying spouse in the hospital or even taking home the flag of a dead military spouse, aren’t given to civil union couples just because they aren’t married. That’s federal level”
What I find funny is that so many “christians” see it as so much WORSE than all the other sins.
We CAN explain how homosexuality exists. EVEN MY 80 YEAR OLD DAD understands that it’s the action of hormones on a child in the womb, that’s been mis-timed – overdone, or underdone at the wrong time.